This world is a funny one

Here we are in this world.

People kill people
Man eat man
Man kill woman
Woman kill man

Everybody kill everybody


All because we don't think the same, we see the world as our playground.
Yet we can't play in the sand together, share the toys or stay friends.

In Norway around 91 (probably) more were killed by a crazy shooter and a bomb.
Now why would they do this?
Oh right, down with the multicultural society.

It was probably right wing maniacs who are behind it all.
They show the same way of thinking like Hitler did in 1933 or the Facists did in Italy.
The Aussies with their white australian policy.

We will never be able to live together as long as we are territorial like that.
My uncle once said something quite clever, man is territorial, it's something that we have in our genes and something that's left from our primal instincts.

Kill everyone that intrudes on our turf and also the "traitors" that allowed the "threat" to involve our borders.

I'm sort of curious to see what will happen next. Will everybody that look different be forced to flee the northern countries?

How about me who are adopted Swedish? Can I walk the streets at night worried to get beaten up or worse, killed because I look different?

When or where will this stop? Will it stop? What if it just escolate from here?
The shooter in Norway decleared that it was just the begining. What if it's not an empty threat.
What if he is right about that. An attack like that will only inspire more people who think in those ways to pick up their guns and go crazy.

Will there be a war between the left radicals and the right radicals? (not that they don't already have a cold war on eachother)

On the upside, maybe this will make the Communists in Norway to stand together for once.

I hardly believe that will ever happen but I can still hope right?

Anyway.

I also find it sort of funny that people react like hell when 91 people die in Norway, yet when something similar happen in Africa, Gaza or anywhere else in the world people just shrug and go, "owell could be worse"

WHERE THE HELL IS THE LOGIC IN THAT?!

Sure it's sad what happend yet please please please try to think of something that does not only have to do with you!

There are a bigger world than the 4.7 milion people in Norway or the 9.8 milion in Sweden.
People keep talking about the arrogant idiots in USA yet their mentality is quite the same.
"we don't need to go anywhere becasue we have the greatest country in the world"

Yeeeeah....no.

The fear that many feel at the moment is something some people go through every day!

My heart goes out to the ones in Norway as it goes out to the people of the world who go through things like this every day.

Me in a nutshell

I know I had written some things here, but they have been haunting me, so I change this one.

It doesn't matter what it used to say, what it says now is the important thing.
There is only one love in my life and the love is her, with her red beautifull hair and wonderfull personality.

She is more than I deserve, she is more than any man deserve and it's great that she trusts me enough to call me her boyfriend.

I love my flower and hopefully she loves me just as much

Love hurts yet it's like a drug I can't get enough

Quite alot has happened since I last wrote here, the girl I used to love got depromoted in my heart when I realized I could never fully trust her, yet I did not feel to sad about it. The problem were that after the blinding love disapeared I saw her in a different light, as it turns out she is more alike my mother then she thinks...and I feel a disslike towards my mother, so guess how I felt about her afterwards.

We got into fights from time to time and now we barely speak....never speak.

Owell, I'm not sure to how and why what happened after happened, but I'm not sad, far from it.
The girl...."Corazon" as I used to call her has a cousin, same age, she is like "Corazon" yet not, she is much more positive and also takes one day at a time, when I came to my senses I were living far from her, but I realized that she had something no other girl I know or knew had.

Well there is one more person who shares that skill with her, but she isn't as important.

I felt I could talk to my flower, I mean really talk to her, if I had a bad day and didn't feel like talking to anyone she would log on and my problems would just go away, I would talk to her freely and not worry about anything anymore. It was like she were the first person who saw me as me, not an adopted kid from Brazil but me, Oscar (Okami/Warg) the person I am.
It feels as if she's the only person in my life who doesn't care about my past but just cares for me as me. That is only one of the reasons to why I love her.

Sure I'm fully aware of some lingering feelings for "Corazon" far far far back, somwhere so deep I really don't care for them, but even she couldn't give me what my Flower has given me, for once in my life I feel that there is a person who actually knows me, who can see through me if she wanted to.

It's odd how life works, sometime she is a bitch throwing you around like a ragdoll from side to side, other time she is like the sweetest of women, giving you all you need and all you want.
Guess I ove you a thanks this time, please don't take it away from me.

bättre om jag försvinner

Ja nu vet jag inte mer, mor vill inte veta av mig, far vill inte veta av mig, bror vill inte veta av mig, allt känns helt förjävligt och jag vet inte hur mycke mer jag klarar av, mina föräldrar som jag borde kunna lita på, sviker mig när jag behöver dom som mest, båda två!

Jag kan inte snylta på mina vänner för det är för fel och jag vill inte fråga dom häller.

Vad om jag bara tar och hoppar i sjön, eller stjäl en båt, försvinna i några år, stjäla för att leva och leva för att stjäla, bara ge upp och strunta i allt.
För här mår jag inge bra och det känns som om ingen bryr sig ett dugg om vad jag gör eller kunde göra, kanske jag bara ska ta en kökskniv och skära över strupen på far, det är lätt, har gort det på grisar, hur stor skilnad är det på en gris och en människa?
Säkert inte så stor.
Jag kan kanske hoppa framför ett tåg, fort och effektivt, man ska visst inte känna så mycke innan kroppen blir delad i tre delar.